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Monday, August 30, 2004Freedom!
*wipes off the woad* Well my paper's in, and despite not being able to resist a small bit of snarkiness over the sweeping demands of the editorial board, I think I (finally) handled the revisions pretty well. More importantly, I feel as though I have finally slipped the chains of undergraduacy. Tomorrow I get my first paycheck, and Wednesday I intend to bring the first chapter of my book to the fiction crit group that loyal readers will remember from last month. Moving ever forward... Sunday, August 29, 2004Doomsday
They found me. The journal found me.
>_> <_< *runs into underground hiding* Tuesday, August 24, 2004Haiku: Rush Hour mono no aware
traffic swerves sharply
around the skinny bodies: two gilt-spined volumes Sunday, August 22, 2004Ah, procrastination.
Oh dear. So before I graduated, I submitted a paper to my college academic journal. It got accepted for publication under the condition that I revise it. It's due mid-August (wait, was that *last* week? ^_^;; )and here I am...just starting to revise.
It's not that I didn't *think* about revising it. I just for some reason couldn't bring myself to. Graduating gave me a whole new perspective on my academic work. I loved it, it was fun, but when the commentators on my paper ask me why anyone should *care* whether high society functioned under a martial/homosocial framework or if courtly love was actually operable during the Hundred Year's War, well...I have a hard time coming up with anything. Short of reminding people that all those romances about knights and their ladies were fiction and not a reflection of 99% of actual events, the paper was mainly important to me because it was a big part of my grade. Its argument is also a little haphazard and disconnected because I was writing it while recovering from the flu. Yeah. It's not really a part of my college experience I look back on fondly. But a few hours of revision should take care of those little problems (at least, that's my fervent hope). I think my real aversion to this paper, a revulsion that made me physically incapable of looking at it for several months, comes from the fact that it's keeping open a chapter of my life that I'm prepared to have closed. I would not have wanted to stay in college any longer. I made a lot of good friends and loved every second of academic stimulation, but now is not a time in my life when I need one more thing reminding me how out of touch a liberal arts education is with the actual world I now find myself living in. It would have made sense for me to agree to this whole paper shenanagin if I were trying to move on to grad school and stay within the delirious bubble of the academic world. But I made a choice to move out of that world for awhile, and I've been doing pretty well with that so far. Except for this one little slip-up. Learning experiences are fun. It's weird...I still want to consume and discuss academic literature. I have a card at the local university and I'm doing all sorts of silly research for my novel. But I have absolutely no desire to write analytical papers about it. Honestly, that was always my least favorite part of the whole English major bag. I'd rather make my own statements in fiction and conversation. This post has just become another avoidance technique. Back to the coal mines with me.... Thursday, August 12, 2004gweeee!
omfg wasabi-newt-on-a-stick!!!1
*cough* So the Chihuahua place called me back this morning and said they wanted to talk to me about working as a marketing/communications person for their software. I pulled myself together in half and hour, drove down there, and was basically hired on the spot! So, um, yeah. I don't think it's sunk in yet...? O_O/~ One of the guys I interviewed with for the other position came in before my interview (which turned out to really be my first few hours of work) and said, "Wow, you're here so much they should just put you on the payroll." I'm glad I got hired today or I might have had to kick him in the shins. Sometimes employed people forget what it's like to be the unemployed...always teasing, always taunting, calling us in for interview after interview before rejecting us, lulling us into a false sense of security before calling 3 weeks later at 8 AM... Also, in typical quirky fashion, I was invited to stay for the company lunch, which was being held to say goodbye to the person whose position I interviewed for before. @_* It should have been more awkward, but awkwardness doesn't really seem possible at this place. <3 For the rest of the afternoon, I assembled my desk. Yes, that's right, my first task on the job was furniture assembly--which anyone who knows how I spent a good chunk of June should find funny. It helped me get acclimated, I think. ^_^ One of the chemical engineers called up a guy from production to bring some tools and help me out, which was good, because by the end of the day we decided my desk was cursed and evil and had come from the dark, smelly abyss to torment us both. Really. It would *not* go together, and we all know I have mad pre-fab assembly skills by now. Not to mention a mechanical engineer to help me. But anyway, I'm super-excited about this job. It starts out part-time but should be full-time by September, and looks like I'll get to do a lot of exciting, diverse, and autonomous work. And I get business cards! And to go shopping for business casual marketing clothes! XD *priorities* This is all assuming the desk doesn't eat me...I'm going to have to name it so I can banish it to the fiery depths of Hades if it acts up. Knowing my past relationship with Herbert, though, I'm sure we'll get along fine. Monday, August 09, 2004Don't wait for the primaries--vote now!
So I'm considering making an EGL dress (elegant gothic lolita, for those of you not in the Japanese-weird-fashion know, think Dark!Alice-in-Wonderland) and I'm trying to decide what color to trim/accent it with. (The dress will be black, of course.) So you get to help me decide!
1) Crimson Red 2) Slytherin Green 3) Royal Purple 4) Winedark Burgundy 5) Baby Blue 6) Luscious Lapis (It took me *so* long to type that right [see #2]) 7) Petal Pink 8) Winter White 9) Hiss! More Black! Vote now in the comments. You can add an "other" category if you offer compelling reasons and have a suitably impressive color name. Also, keep in mind that I might be looking for a sort of Asiany brocade in the trim color... Sunday, August 08, 2004Ye Olde Village Writing Grouppe
So I went to that writers' group, as I threatened I would. I didn't bring a manuscript, as I'm the type who likes to lurk at the fringes and fully assess the situation before I take any risks. That turned out to be fine, though, because there were four other people there besides me, including the hostess, and three of them had manuscripts. The composition of the group was thus:
1) Elderly trucker with no previous writing experience (first time, brought ms.) 2) Humorless middle aged woman (first time, no ms.) 3) Young professional woman (second time, brought ms.) 4) Hostess (published suburban mom, brought ms.) 5) The Muffin (first time, no ms.) #2 made frequent demands of our hostess regarding why the group didn't send out copies of people's manuscripts by email beforehand, and instead relied on actual paper mss. read in the presence of the author. The hostess explained that this style produces gut reactions and forces people to act as readers and not editors or writer-types when responding to a piece. Which I agree with in principle, although I thought that it was a little unreasonable to also expect proofreading comments to be written on a 10 pp document that you'd only just met and had to pull together intelligent commentary on in the span of 15 minutes. The critiques went pretty well, over all; the hostess was a pretty good moderator, although nowhere near as ruthless about keeping people on track as my beloved college fiction professor. It was less formal than a class setting, definitely, and my main disappointment was that the critiquers simply went around in a circle and said what they would individually, with not much chance to reply to each other's criticism. Of course, it took about an hour an ms. anyway, and there were only 5 of us, so maybe that was good. I can say quite modestly that I'm a better writer than #1 or #3, although I was very impressed by a chapter from our hostess's book, a sci-fi romance. I was dying for the next chapter, and I'd only read the first half of the fourth chapter! I hope I can read it in print some day. The most amusing part of the evening was definitely the chit-chat at the end, when the hostess mentioned to me that she was impressed because "For an English major, you're not dogmatic at all." @_* This merely confirms something that I think a lot of folks at liberal arts schools forget: just because you think it's a wonderful thing to be overeducated, other people aren't necessarily going to agree. Many people will resent you or react with defensive embarrassment when they learn your education level; it can even stand in the way of you getting a job, because bosses are worried about overeducated people growing out of the position too quickly. The best defense is modesty; don't be afraid to say what you think and argue it effectively, but remember that almost no one cares about the names of critics you've read, and constantly pointing out what you see as ignorance in others is no way to make friends. You can learn a lot about people by just listening to why they think as they do, without immediately trying to lord your superiority of knowledge over them. Perhaps that's the character-study writer in me talking, but I think everyone could benefit from a respectful attitude towards people with different education levels. They always know things you don't. *end personal peeve* Anyway, I plan on going back to the group in September and bringing a first chapter of the story Liminal's beta-ing for me to see what the group thinks. I'm a little hesitant, though--it's definitely the most het/vanilla group I've been in in a long time, and though there's nothing overtly homoerotic especially in early chapters of my book, well, it's going to be there later. It'll probably be a good thing for me, since I want the book to have wider appeal than just with slashers and GLBT folks, but this group is pretty much Venn Diagram excluded from what I would envision as my target audience. (Although I have to mention that one of the most privately amusing parts of the night was when the hostess mentioned that her 17-year-old daughter writes fan fiction for a TV show she really likes...I think it's the first time I've met an actual middle-aged straight person outside a fandom who knows what fanfic is. [With the possible exception of Purin's mom :P] Not that I expect her daughter is writing slash or anything...) Anyway, jumping from people who know me personally and know that gender/sexuality issues are central to my writing into a whitewashed suburban writer's group is a little... It sounds stupid, but critique is nerve-wracking enough without having to worry about your characters getting queerbashed. For those of you who haven't been in this sort of environment recently, let me give you an example of how gender operates in the real world. #2, for example, prefaced all his critiques with a lengthy disclaimer on how he was a man reading a woman's writing, and how women like different books and writing styles than men, and how he was so impressed by the hostess's book because it held a man's attention span and had things men were interested in. Personally, I think that a well-written book should appeal to either gender; I've read and enjoyed everything from Clive Cussler to Catherine Coulter. But people still feel like they have to make these distinctions, so it doesn't really matter what I like. Another, another sociological thing I noticed was how a late-comer (#6: the regular attendee with the strange accent) offered much harsher critique than the rest of us. Not because he conveyed more problems, but because he was very blunt and patronizing and even a little nasty, I thought, whereas all the conversation before then had been very open-ended and occasionally self-effacing. I've noticed that in general women are taught to be more self-effacing in groups, mostly because they're more polite in general, but I would think that all writers would be sensitive enough about egos to couch their criticism in the most helpful and least negative way possible. Liminal, I'm sure you know what I mean from your own time in critique; even if you hate something, you don't try to make people cry. (Unless they deserve it ^_^. ) Perhaps it's a side-effect of arrogance; the elderly man was certainly as self-effacing as any of the women in the group, mostly because he was insecure about his own writing, and had probably been brought up well by his mother. At any rate, I'll be interested to read something from #6 and see if he has the bite to back up his bark. Tuesday, August 03, 2004Manga goes mainstream? (Still? More? Again?)
Check out this tidbit from Publishers Lunch:
Japanese Manga Partner for Penguin "Penguin will launch a manga co-publishing venture with Digital Manga Inc. Launching in spring 2005, they'll publish 8 to 10 titles the first year, and 15 to 20 titles a year thereafter. Eloise Flood negotiated the deal and will publish children's and YA titles through the Razorbill imprint, while adult books will be published by Berkley." Is Tokyo Pop owned by one of the big five publishers? Maybe Penguin will be able to pay layout people and copy editors. Should be cool, especially because the mention of adult books makes me think they won't just be disgorging endless shoujo high school doki-doki waku-waku romances. Check out the Digital Manga, Inc. Site: http://www.dmpbooks.com/ Also, anyone interested in translating, drawing, or doing layout or graphic design for a manga company in LA should check out the jobs section. My favorite part about the DMP press release? "Digital Manga Publishing is not stopping there. They plan on introducing the domestic market to a variety of manga genres, including yaoi titles such as Desire, Passion, and Only the Ring Finger Knows." "Only the Ring Finger Knows"?! omg yaoi titles @_* Monday, August 02, 2004Re: Transauthsexual
This entry is regarding CP's post on transauthsexuals.
I think that a lot of women, especially SFF authors, write male characters rather than female ones because, for some reason, male characters seem to have more of a "blank slate" as far as believability and personality goes. Maybe this means women have a lot more socio-psycho-cultural baggage than men. Perhaps it stems from the still-too-common view of "normalcy" that defines women by their difference from men. Male bodies and minds are viewed as a sort of "control" because they are optimized, streamlined, less complicated, what have you. More likely the blank slate effect is a product of the fact that most SFF authors (especially fantasy authors) are writing in worlds where men have the greatest mobility, power, and capacity for adventure. When SFF tries to make a more gender-equal society, the women often end up being mannish, because the authors try to bring female characters closer to "the norm." Regardless of whether art is reflecting the author's or the character's society here, women characters seem to be harder to make rounded on the page, no matter if written by male or female authors. And I don't think most female authors, especially non-slash ones, pick male characters because they feel freed by not having to portray them "correctly," but perversely choose males because it's easier to make readers believe in a SFF man, and every author wants to be believed. SFF has a history of male language and character norms that is very easy to tap into and spin off from; I'd argue that its norms for women are much less comfortable to work with for modern authors with any kind of sensibility, male or female. I wonder if your dad would think that male authors writing female characters is weird? Thoughts on that in general? So what's a gender-conscious SFF writer to do? I feel a horrible pressure to write stories about interesting, dynamic, human women whose psyches are rounded and believable, but looking back over most of my work, I'd have to say I've failed the few times I've half-heartedly attempted it. I am no less susceptible to the "blank-template" effect than any other author; maybe more susceptible, since I'm largely a product of what I've read, and most of my SFF background is ruthlessly masculine. Maybe slash writers are writing androgynous/genderqueer men as a way to question and subvert the blank template effect. But they run the risk of falling into their own gendered codes just as bad as any of the stereotypes female fantasy characters have to get over before becoming believable. Take for example the slash classics such as the Tortured Hero, Androgynous Exotic, Slave Boy, Manly Rapist, etc etc. Gender queering isn't enough without a real core of believable humanity, and that's why the male-dominance in the Lowachee books never struck me as odd. Hers is a rough world, peopled by characters who have perfect reason to be who and what they are in that world. How boring and limiting it would be if female authors could only write about female characters, and males about males. The goal should not be to make characters seem androgynous/gender-neutral, but for the author itself to occupy a place that transcends and flows between gendered ideas, appropriating whatever is necessary to make a character resonate sympathetically and humanely with the readers. Like actors, authors do not have the luxury of retaining their identities if they wish to create good art. They can draw on their personal experience and perception, indeed they must, but art that is really resonant must be so much more than author roleplaying or wish-fulfillment. It must speak to universal human commonalities. To do that, an author must be not appear to be trans-anything, but pan-everything: all knowing, all encompassing, the deity of the book. CP, you can compare your own thoughts on Lowachee vs. Robbins here (I hope I'm not misquoting you, correct me if I'm wrong). You like Lowachee's men because their masculinity, even if atypical or queered, is always unconscious and believeable; you dislike Robbins' women because they're so conscious of the strangeness of their femaleness and femininity. Robbins is trans, Lowachee is pan. For anyone who wants a recent fantasy series with a feminine, believable, fabulous woman main character, you must must must pick up Jacqueline Carey's Kushiel books. In Terre D'Ange, she creates a world that embraces sexual difference without subjugating one sex to the other, and the main character Phedre is relentlessly female and human at the same time. |
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